Drawing Blanks

２日にだけ、Ryanが日本に到着です。良かったです。

In 2 days Ryan will be arriving. Oddly enough, I'm excited yet not. There's a countdown going off in my head - and on this blog, too -, but also I just have no idea what to expect when Ryan gets here. Other than complete fun and chaos of course. But it's situations like these in which I draw mental blanks as to what will happen in which I become oddly neutral. Like when I moved to Japan. Or when I went to Thailand.

Don't really know how to express it, either. But that's easy enough to express.

Count Down

Today being February 6th, 2008, I have 2 months and 4 days left of living in Japan. It's just odd to feel that my time here is drawing to a close. It feels like I have been here forever, but things that go on forever are not supposed to have an end. I'm not panicking yet, but chances are that when I board that train that finally takes me to NRT for the last time the panic will hit then. And when I cross customs, officially leaving Japan for God knows how long. Or when the plane actually takes off. And when I say goodbye to my friends here, and tears are streaming to the point of dehydration, when I scream that life is not fair.

But until then, I'm happy overall with my stay. It's been fun, but I feel that I have other places to go to now.

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Of form and physique

Ryan's been working out for the last two months. He says that he has started to see results. Alex works out like crazy and is one of the most fit people I know.

I binge eat on Wendy's and Cocoichi and barely lift a finger. I used to jog and do push-ups, but ever since I got hit by that motorbike, things have kind of taken a turn for the worse.

All I want to do is relax.
I want to have muscles and be to die for.
There's ice cream in the fridge.
I don't want to suck in anything anymore.

This is the noise that keeps me awake. My head explodes and my body aches.

I saw some pictures of people on FB, people who I have not seen in a long time. It's scary to see how some of these people have gained quite a bit of weight. I cannot be a part of this category.

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